Out of all the teens we have helped very few become return guests of our program. Scott is one of the few that has relapsed and had to be re-admitted to our teen drug rehab. Upon his second stay it was evident to staff and his family something had changed. More than ever Scott was determined to shake his addiction and start his life over.
I’m not getting too cocky before that’s how I was. I was cocky and I ended up relapsing. I’m in the middle right now, I’m confident but I’m not over confident.
We are proud to say we have seen a significant change in Scott since his re-admission and upon his leave asked him to share his story of why he relapsed and had to return. Scott really sees a change within himself this time around and hopes his new coping skills and sponsor will keep him from relapse.
I have a sponsor and I’m going to call him whenever I’m feeling the urge to use. Every time I tell him that when he comes here or go on an outing with him he always talks to me. He always gets me to the point where he makes me think using isn’t going to help and it’s really not gonna help. I never really did I just thought about the process of getting high.
Listen to Scott share why he had to change his ways:
Denise: Hello! How are you today? Today’s your last day and your birthday!
Denise: Eighteen. Adult.
Scott: I’m eighteen.
Denise: That’s a big deal.
Denise: I guess you don’t realize it yet that it’s a big deal right?
Scott: No no. (laughs)
Denise: You’re gonna realize that in a week or two.
Scott: I know.
Denise: You’re going to be saying I don’t know if eighteen is so great.
Denise: Anyways so it’s your second time here. Your substance of choice was heroin?
Denise: The first time you came in how old were you?
Scott: I was seventeen.
Denise: Seventeen so that was like a year ago?
Scott: It was last august so about eight months or so.
Denise: Eight months, so when did you start using?
Scott: I started using heroin when I was in eighth grade going into ninth grade.
Denise: How did that happen?
Scott: Um, I just started hanging out with the wrong people. I started hanging out with older kids and they were doing opana and then I got into that before I got into heroin. One thing led to another and I couldn’t afford the pills and stuff so I had to go to heroin because it was cheaper. I thought it was a better high and it was a lot cheaper so I started doing it and then I had a problem. It just escalated it and it became hell for the past four years.
Denise: So what happened when you got out of treatment and how long was it before you relapsed?
Scott: It took like two days.
Denise: And what drove you to that? Like how did that feel? That moment of decision whether I’m going to relapse or not?
Scott: At first I went to a party and I was just like drinking. Then I was like I’m fine I can drink and then I ended up blacking out that night and the next morning I woke up at my mom’s house. Her house is like an hour away from where I was so somehow I got to her house. I woke up and she told me you were puking and you did all this stuff. The next day after that I was like I want to get high so I didn’t think I just wanted to get high.
Denise: Then you got stuck again.
Scott: Yeah. Then I went on another binge I got arrested, I was put on drug court and it’s been a never ending cycle since I’ve been fourteen or fifteen.
Denise: Wow okay and then you came back about how long ago?
Scott: I’ve been here 60 days.
Denise: Sixty days and your plan now is to go to a half way?
Scott: Yes it is. I’m staying down here.
Denise: You’re going to finish your high school? Cause you’re almost done which is great!
Denise: Let me ask you Scott how many friends have you lost or have died in the last four years that you were using?
Scott: I’ve had three close friends that died and I know of four more that died.
Denise: That’s a lot. That’s very scary.
Denise: What is gonna be your coping skill to resist the desire or urge to relapse?
Scott: I’m going to try and get into the gym. I want to see going to boxing or something. Just something to fill that void so that if something happens I don’t have to use. Another thing to use is I have a sponsor and I’m going to call him whenever I’m feeling the urge to use. Every time I tell him that when he comes here or go on an outing with him he always talks to me. Sometimes I don’t know what he’s saying but he always gets me to the point where he makes me think using isn’t going to help and it’s really not gonna help. It’s like he says “Yeah maybe it’s good for the moment but then you have to think about after the withdrawal, you get arrested or just everything after doing that.” I never really did I just thought about the process of getting high.
Denise: So you think this time you got it? You hope it’s a work in progress!
Scott: Yeah! I’m not getting too cocky before that’s how I was. I was cocky and I ended up relapsing. I’m in the middle right now, I’m confident but I’m not over confident.
Denise: It’s a little frightening right?
Denise: I think that’s a great thing to do. Definitely get yourself involved in the gym or boxing because at those times you can just go and work it out. I think for all of us exercise is a huge help because they release endorphins that makes us feel a lot better so it gets us over cravings. I know it’s one of the techniques they use a lot in Europe; they make you work out a lot. They’ll make you exercise till your body is shaking. It’s one of the treatments they use for heroin abuse.
Denise: Well we are wishing you a lot of love. You know that we are here for you, we support you educationally as well. Our door is always open and we are hoping that you stay successful. Hopefully we’ll hear from you all is good and that you haven’t decided to go back into that horrible hell hole. Right? The Hell hole.
Scott: Exactly! Thank you! I’ll keep in contact. I’m only going to be like five minutes away from here.
Denise: Just know we are your family. We are here for you and we care a lot about you. We’ve become family you’ve been here twice and we don’t want you to be a statistic.
Denise: It would break everyone’s, worst your mom heart. It’s very difficult on the families dealing with addiction always. Thank you for having the courage to comeback and fight this disease one more time! Good job and thank you for sharing!