DA: Hi, so this is an exciting day for you!
JF: It is an exciting day. I’m officially checking out of Inspirations
DA: How many days have you been here?
JF: I’ve been here two months exactly, 60 days.
DA: Good job! Would you like to share with us why you came here?
JF: I came here because I’m a drug addict and I was arrested for distributing LSD.
DA: Alright, so that was your drug of choice?
JF: Yeah it was one of my drugs of choice, hallucinogens in general; marijuana was the main one really.
DA: And how are you feeling now?
JF: I feel great. I feel like everything is going to be alright.
DA: Now let me ask you, let’s go back to when you first came in here. How did you feel your first week?
JF: The first week I came in here I didn’t want to be here, but I kind of accepted it and kind of just started to realize that the things I was doing before weren’t working out for me. So, being here like at the beginning was kind of stressful because it all just happened so fast like after I got arrested and stuff, but I got used to it, you know? I got…is started to really help me.
DA: Alright and how was the therapy here? How was your relationship with your therapist?
JF: My relationship with my therapist now is really good. He’s helped me gain more trust with my parents and he’s really got my back like 100% so.
DA: And how was your relationship with your parents when you arrived here?
JF: I mean, I didn’t really care about it, that’s the thing. Like I did, I would tell you I did but my actions showed differently so it was really bad because I would just avoid them because I was always high like I couldn’t really like look them in the eyes because I was always high and they were just always…they knew it so it was just bad, to say the least.
DA: How is it now? How is your relationship going now with your family?
JF: It’s a work in progress. It’s a lot better than it was before because my parents know that I’m…my parents are aware that I’m committed to changing and it’s just going to be a trust building thing so…
DA: What’s your plan when you go home? What are you going to do… to stay clean, to stay on track?
JF: To stay clean you gotta change… you gotta change everything, you gotta change who you’re hanging out with, where you’re going, what you’re doing. So basically I’m just going to be working hard on online school and doing things I need to do to gain my trust back and my relationship back with the people that are really important to me.
DA: And let me ask you, how was the education here for you?
JF: Getting signed up for online classes is what I did here and that really helped me because now I’m going to be finishing school through online and like being here really helped me get a head start on that and really like helped me create a plan for my education.
DA: Well that’s awesome. And let me ask you since you’ve had in-class most of the time you’ve been in the classroom, how is online learning compared to being in the classroom?
JF: For me, I would just always like go to school high so learning in school – like I didn’t. Like I would just sit, I would just sleep in class or get distracted, you know? Even when I wasn’t high I would just… I couldn’t stay focused so by being able to work at my own pace online like doing the work myself instead of having someone teach it to me on a board or something is a lot better for me. I recommend it to anyone who can’t stay focused in school.
DA: Awesome. So now when you go back home…oh I know what I wanted to ask you about. You have an amazing gift? Share that with us.
JF: So I play in a band called Relief in Sleep and I play guitar in that band.
DA: Alright and let me ask you, what’s the difference in your music abilities now that you’re not using and clean compared to when you were using? Because a lot of musicians feel that they need drugs to be creative and to make music.
JF: You definitely don’t need drugs to be creative. That’s what you think when you’re on drugs because that just gives you an excuse to do drugs, but no you definitely don’t need drugs to be creative. I’m creative all the time, I guess that’s who I am, I’m a creative person. I’m always thinking like my right side, you know?
DA: So you’re able to remember stuff when you’re producing your own music or creating your own?
JF: Yeah definitely. Like I’m more, like I would get high and play guitar and just not be focused you know? Trying to write music and just kind of give up because like, I’d just rather like not do anything. But yeah, being clean has really helped me stay motivated and stay like on track.
DA: And what do you think about the AA principles?
JF: The 12 steps in NA is like really the most important thing that you can learn here. You work through four steps here. The first four steps and really just take it seriously because if you don’t, like you’re really missing out on the truth because NA, like you can get clean like it’s your choice. That’s what NA shows you.
DA: And it’s a huge support system.
JF: Yeah it’s huge, people who don’t even know you will just accept you for who you are and like accept the things that you did and just say, okay you’re better than that though. You can do better than that. They just help you out like, no matter what because they were there once and they needed help and someone helped them through NA. So they just want to give back. That’s like the most important thing here, is just paying attention in the NA groups.
DA: Well you’ve done a great job and we’ve been able to watch you while you’ve been here and we’ve seen how you’ve changed and you look fabulous.
JF: Thank you.
DA: Please keep in touch with us because it’s always important.
JF: Do I look great?
DA: You look great! Oh ten times better. You’ve gained weight; you have color in your skin. Your eyes are white and shiny and you’re present! You’re here in the here and now!
JF: I’m alive! [laughs]
DA: You’re alive! [laughs] We’re so proud of you and keep in touch and I do want a picture of you when you graduate, for my wall okay?
DA: Okay, thanks so much.
JF: Alright, no problem. Thank you.